"They were my first soulmate and my primary partner for 4 years…almost. I grew a lot during that relationship. There are some mistakes I regret because I think that relationship would have sustained if I hadn’t made those decisions. I don’t think I needed to be poly. I think I was just being young. I could’ve remained monogamous with that person. I probably should have cause it wouldn’t have opened the door to the things that happened.
That was my first soulmate. Hopefully there will be more cause I’m tired of still being in pain about losing that…them."
"The biggest hurt is my long term partner leaving... also the disregard that comes with the way they left. I wasn’t afforded humanity. There are people who would say I’m garbage. That I have like anger issues. That I was manipulative at times. And I’ve made some human ass mistakes in my youth, in relationships. I don’t think any of it was catastrophic. But even if I made mistakes I’m a human just like everyone else. And I wasn’t afforded that humanity. I was disregarded. And I lost somebody I loved more than I loved myself. Which is not healthy, but it was the truth. They left, never spoke to me again, and threw me the fuck away. I still hurt because of that."
"I’ve learned that you should not jump at connections you think you have with people. There are only gonna be so many people that are really there for you, that you really have a connection with, that you really should pursue a relationship with. You need to protect yourself a lot more than I ever really protected myself. I wish it could be really free. But it’s not. Some people are not good for you, and you can’t just jump at pretty faces."